Living Without Favorites.

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People always say things like,
"I like this,"
"I like that,"
"This is my favorite color,"
"That is my dream," etc.

But I don't have any.
Honestly, I don't have a favorite color, a favorite thing to do, or anything like that.
Most of the time, I feel the same while doing different things.
Rarely, I feel very excited by doing or seeing something, but I always react to things that excite me.
I don't even have a specific favorite person.
I treat all my friends the same way.

My close friend Pravalika once told me something about myself that is absolutely correct: I can't prioritize between people.
If there is a friend beside me whom I've known for a few days and another friend I've known for years who is far away, I might choose the one near me over the one who is really close to me.
I really don't know anything about myself. I feel like such a mess. I would like to know if I need to work a lot to get myself in order, or if it's fine to be the way I am.

Is there anyone out there just like me, or am I the only one?🤔

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